eulogy

We cannot deny death. Death is the end. Death is the pinnacle.
We must embrace it, befriend it, know about it, accept it.

If we will be able to accept that everything has an end, then our attachment to earthly possession will be temporary and shallowly rooted. We can easily pull the plug that is making us feel bad, making us bad if we don't  consider those material things as ourselves. We are not the things that we have, it is not the definition of your being. The things that you have will eventually wither away.

Nothing is permamenent in this world, everything will end. Even life itself, even love, fame, greatness. You can even end right now what you are feeling or what you are having, because you are the one who controls it. You are the one who's in-charge of your life.

In our culture, it is not a practice to prepare a eulogy to the dead. Mine is a shy culture, never in my life I have experience someone saying something about the dead. People just go to the funeral to pay respect for the living family members not to the dead.

If I am to be fetched by death right now this will be my eulogy.

Son of a peasant, who were able to obtain a good education thru patience and perseverance. He honored deeply his parents, love his siblings. An average students, live like a normal country boy. Know the ins and out of the most dreaded place in the capital. Never been vicitimized by theft and pickpockets, streetwise. A survivor, have been ridiculed not only twice, he lost count of it.

A fighter, who don't give up no matter how big the odds are. Low self esteem due to poverty, but is trying to overcome by working hard and sacrificing time with his own family. A loving husband and responsible father. A cheater, sinner, adulterer, he will burn in hell if there is hell.

Have a shakeable faith, envy the believers. Don;t tottally agree to the teaching of the church. Open minded to other philosophical view. Begging for peacefulness. Paranoid, coward, scared of life. Wants to control everything happening in his life. Contradictory principle in life. A loser.

Lustful, good in bed, have a good appetite in sex. Can satisfy a woman. Athletic, physically attrative. Good sense of humor, writes sometimes. Want to be many things, wants to achieve a lot of title. Wants to be rich and powerful.

Bitter. Do not forget who hurt him, always planning for revenge. Believe in payback and getting even. Believe that justice is in his own hand.

An adventurer, loves pain. Pain is his friend it's his alarm signal that he is alive, still human. Loves black coffee to remind him all the bitterness of life. Happiness is temporary, most of the time we are sad. We are made sad. Melancholic.

Confuse. Asking for forgiveness to the almighty and to all those people he have hurt. Believe that there is someone above us all. Wants to go back to a simple kind of life. Knowing is not the way to be happy it is the way to realize your sadness. Give me ignorance of all things, I don't want to know anymore.