answer wisely

“You can tell whether a man is clever by his answers. You can tell whether a man is wise by his questions.”
~ Naguib Mahfouz

Most of the time when I am having a conversation I always try to pause for a while before answering any quastion try to absorb and understand what does that person really wants to know. It's like you're trying to figure out whether it's trick question or not.

But you can easily figure out a question what it really means, especially when it comes from a person you hardly know or talk with. Just like what happened to me the other day, there was this gal who I don't usually pay attention suddenly talk to me and asks me personal questions.

The fact that she is having a chat with me is already strange. Then she asks about my personal life made it more absurd. The first thing on my mind was, "Wait...what the hell does she wants?" "Why do you want to know that?"

This gal wants to know some info on me, on a personal level so she can somehow justify what I am doing. Is she trying to understand why the fuck I do the things I am doing now? Or she's getting info so she can tell all her girlfriends and talk about my personal life for their entertainment. So I thought, you are fucking with me ha? Ok, I'm going to play your game.

"I will let you hear what you want to hear. If you want to assume how asshole I am I will give it to you, open your mouth wide and suck it." With this kind of people around you, I cannot blame myself if I told them fictionalized stories about myself. Can somebody tell me, if what she did was right? I hate people like that, they talk to you just to measure and judge you. They deserve a fucking answer like that because they only asks stupid questions.

It's a dog world

Should I be nice with a coworker who wants to get on with my gf while

I was out sweating my ass out? Should I still treat him right when I

saw him making moves to her? Him being a nice fucking guy who wants to

have a piece of my heaven here at work? Hell no!!!

I like how the dog world works, it's fucking simple. The men rules and

the bitches chooses the razorback dog, the alpha male. Once a dog

pisses a lighting post it is his territory. Yeah that simple, my dog

always do it. He always make sure that his stinking piss is on that

pole, if it's not he make sure he squirt another venom to it.

When a dog from other area pass by and smell other dog's piss they

piss on it too, telling them it's theirs. But my dog wont allow it,

that's why he always check. It's just bad for the other dog if he

caught him doing that, it's always trouble as expected. it will surely

be a bloody fight, the better dog rules. And as usual my battle

hardened dog always win and all the bitches in the neighborhood will

choose him.

So, I should kick my coworkers ass for pissin' on my pole, I sure hope

it will be bloody. After he surrenders I will shit on his face and

tell him t always bow down when I'm around.

She is my bitch asshole, don't you fuck around or I might blow your

brain off your head. You retard.

I'm shit as always

It doesn't matter whether your doing exemplary work or toilet paper work, you will always be a shit to your boss. It even gets worse when you are under a manpower agency like where I am. My boss shit to my face and he will tell our boss in the agency that I just do shit which will make him happy because he'll not give me anything for our yearly performance evaluation.

It does not matter to my agency boss whether I'm doing good or bad because they are already profiting from me being assigned here in this project. It's a win-win situation for them, while for me it's a loose-loose fuck-up scenario.

Why did I come into that conclusion? I happen to have access on how much my client boss' company is paying for my service and I'm receiving only a third of it. Yeah, that kind of fuckin' tyranny is what we are experiencing. If you dont get it, let's add figure to it. If my client boss is paying my agency $30/hr my agency is paying me only $10/hr, they are getting more than my cut, that kind of shit man is what I'm talking about.

And you'll ask now why the fuck I'm staying and swallowing my worthless pride? Because that fuckin' $10 is still more than the pay that I'm going to receive if I work for a local company. Get that? No, of course you don't get it. Because you are not here from where I am. You don't share my pain and bitterness, you don't share this hell rotting culture that I'm living in. Yeah, that kind of fuckin' society is what we have here. No wonder we have too many violence, and we've got lots of scumbags wondering and playing as fools in the government. Because people here don't say shit, they complain to themselves and they don't say shit to those government bodies. You know why is it like that? Because there is no difference if they say something or not, those fucking evil bastards will only give you lip service and you'll be waiting for some miracle to happen before your case will be entertained. And that is the real life scenarion we are facing everyday, people shitting with each other because their bosses shit on their head too.

Yeah and this fucking place is really a fucking septic tank. And all this fuckin' shit dealings with each other will only create more hate, more killing and it will surely widen the gap between us struggling middle class folks plus the ever increasing impoverished and the devil may care guys are getting over run by those fucking tyrant elitist.
We middle class are decreasing very fast, we are the one directly absorbing all this shit. BEcause the poor guys are used to having none and they give up, they're eating shit that's what they do and most of us are still struggling to fight this hopeless war.
Because we all know our battles are lost but our isn't.

hands are clean

I will kill my own bestfriend too, if he tries to steal away my family from me.

I like Rick Grimes character in the Walking Dead series. I'm with you Rick, I know your hands are clean.

Although I praise the survival instinct of Shane, his man up attitude gets him into trouble. He just creates more enemy by being an asshole, but we've got to admit he kept the group alive for sometime.

Come to think of it, if a friend is against you, he is not your friend. He has some bad intentions going on inside his head so it's good to police up.

I like the sin Lori is whispering to Rick what she want. It's like a combination of the serpent tempting Eve and Judas kiss to Jesus. She is really a bitch, a cunning pussy indeed. Women can really change who you are, they are going to push you to the limits until you break your own principle and when that happens, you start to breakdown yourself. If your foundation isn't strong enough you are going to crumble down.

This fucking rat race we're into is going to change you. You should be ready, because it is inevitable. The situation will come that you'll just lament about the old world that you had.

That's what the fuck I experienced, I can attest to it. It did fucking change me, I don;t know now how much of my old self is left of me. My past is just a mirage of today.

But my hands got some stain, not like Rick's. He's my man.

Fuckin' shit!

Have pity

Have pity on yourself.

That's the word Bruce Lee told one of the guy in the boat who wants to measure him in the film Enter the Dragon.

It's been more than a decade since I first saw that movie. I idolize him even more for showing that kind of confidence. No wonder Master Bruce influence my personality.

Empty your cup and be water my friend.

It's like he's mentoring me as a real friend.

People here around my work always measure each other in every way. And last night I got fed up in all their indirect bullying. On our basketball game I really changed my attitude I went as aggressive as never before, I kept telling myself I can beat the crap out of this posers. And I did, I beat them on their game. I hope taught them a real good lesson by beating them on their own game.

I fuck them real hard that they just awe in silence. I slashed my way up to the goal like a swift sword. And pound them with perimeter shooting like an assasin. Most of them are running out of air at the end of the game but I kept pushing myself controlling the flow of the game until they fade out and then I went stealing the floor.

My team mate ask me to slow down because they can't keep up with phase but I tell them to man the fuck up, and don't bitch out. We can't win if we bitch out. I remember my mentor Jordan telling me to go strong to the hoop and that's what I did...my guard blink first and he went down eating my dust.

How does bitchin' feel fuckers?

I told you that I am gonna beat your ass in your own game. Now, tell me what game you want me to mop your sorry ass?

Fucking posers! You should just rub your own tits.

Bliss

You cannot break me...I'm already broken.

There's nothing you can throw at, I've heard it all before.

Fuck you! You psychotic bitch!

You don't fuck me! I will fuck you!

I will not let you ruin my day. I control my own bliss. I am the master of myself. I tell myself i am free. I tell myself that life without you is better.

Yeah! That's right, I don't care if you fuck everyone here, you don't hurt by doing that because you are only hurting yourself. You think it would solve your problems? It's a plain "NO" , what you did will only add up to the piles of guilt you've been harboring in your port of loneliness. That's right you are going to be lonely for the rest of your life. Now I understand why your life is a mess, you're pretty fuck up lady.

I wish Ican wish you a good life but hell no! My conscience is telling me to go fuck yourself to death... The pain you're feeling must not go away you desrve that, you deserve more than that bitch.

I am going to be alright. I am happy that the shit we had ended, I thank you for that. Yes, thank you for fucking somebdy else..now you go with him and live miserable. Yeah fuck on!


I AM HAPPY!

BLISS!

Kalayawan

"Vanity is really my favorite sin." - Devil's Advocate

Tiningnan ko sa internet ang ibig sabihin nito sa tagalog.

Banidad, Kalayawan

Hindi ko gaano nakuha, self-love na lang ang sa ingles. Mas madaling maintindihan.

Isa sa mga nagustuhan kong pelikula ang Devil's advocate, talagang hindi ko mapigilan ang kilabot sa pagkaramdam ng takot sa mga eksena kung saan ipinapakita ang mga demonyo.

Pinakita din dito kung gaano talaga kaaling ang panlalansi ni Satanas sa tao. At ang kaniyang rason kung bakit niya ginagawa ang mga bagay na ginagawa niya.

Isa sa mga sinabi niya ay

Kevin Lomax: "Better to reign in Hell than serve in Heaven", is that it?
John Milton: Why not? I'm here on the ground with my nose in it since the whole thing began. I've nurtured every sensation man's been inspired to have. I cared about what he wanted and I never judged him. Why? Because I never rejected him. In spite of all his imperfections, I'm a fan of man! I'm a humanist. Maybe the last humanist.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko iintindihin itong sinabi ng demonyo, kaya dapat suriin ng mabuti, itimbang, usisain ang mga natatagong mensahe nito. Dahil puno ng panlilinlang ang demonyo at alam niyang mahina sa tukso ang tao.

Kung ikaw ay nasa estado ng pagkabigo, puno ng problema, nagiisa at malungkot madaling tanggapin ang pananalita na ito. Kaya nga hanggat maari dapat ay lagi tayong may kasama, dapat may mga taong laging nagpapaalala sa atin ang tunay na pagmamahal ng Diyos. Dahil alam naman natin na ito ang totoong magpapasaya sa atin. Mahirap, makipot ang daan papunta sa kaharian ng Diyos. Maraming mga harang, pagsubok para maging karapat-dapat sa kanyang pagmamahal.

Pero bakit ganoon nalang ang pagsusulit na binibigay ng Diyos? Siguro kung madali ay hindi bibigyan ng halaga ng tao, dahil tuso ang tao, madaling makurakot ang utak.

Freewill o kusang loob, ito ang ibinigay ng Diyos. Nasa sa tao kung susunod siya o hindi. Ganoon din ang demonyo, wala siyang kakayahan na pilitin ang tao na sumunod sa kanya. Puro mga tukso ang mundo, halos lahat ng ginagawa natin ay laging may dalawang pwedeng mangyari. Kailangan laging may pipiliin sa bawat sandali. At bawat desisyon ay may kaukulan na reaksyon dito, at itong mga desisyon na ito ang naghuhubog sa ating pagkatao kung sino ba talaga tayo. Dito rin natin makikita ang halaga natin, ang kahulugan at rason ng pagiging tao natin.

Isa pang kaisipan na pumasok sa utak ko ay, bakit hindi nawawala si Satanas o ang demonyo at tukso? Simula sa umpisa palang ay nandoon na siya hanggang sa ngayon ay nandito pa din. Katulad din ba siya ng Diyos? Walang kamatayan? Dito sa mundo ng mga tao? Habang tayo ay nabubuhay ang demonyo ay nasa paligid pa rin. Hindi kaya ang buo nating pagkatao ay nabubuo ng dalawang nilalang? Ang mabuti at masama? Ang yin at yang? Kailangan may katapat ang bawat isa? Kailangan balanse ag lahat.
Katulad na lang ng mundo kapag nawala ang pagkabalanse nito maaring lumayo tayo sa araw na nagbibigay ng buhay sa atin. Paano ba nasusuportahan ang mundo? Anong imbisibol na pwersa ang humahawak dito? May balanse na pwersa dito hindi pwedeng wala.

Isa pa, vanity o self-love.

Kasalanan ito kapag sobra. Dapat talaga balanse lang, dapat maging alerto tayo sa mga kinikilos natin. Baka ang mga ginagawa natin ay tungo na sa direksyon ng kapalaluan, pilit natin binibigyan ng hustisya na ang ginagawa natin ay para sa ikabubuti natin at ng mga mahal sa buhay. Maraming mga ganitong pangyayari sa buhay ko, sa una ang kapakanan ng sarili ko at pamilya ang nauuna, pero kinalaunan mas nangingibabaw ang sarili, nauuwi tuloy sa isang kasalanan at isa pa. Hanggang sa malunod na ako sa kamalian na pinaggagawa ko.

Vanity tunay ngang kasalanan ka.